We knew it was a bad idea to isolate
ourselves so much when it was so near her time but it had been
years since our last holiday and besides, her doctors assured
us that we were at least three weeks away from the birth.
It wasn’t planned—not at all. We’d
settled for a couple of weeks rest and I’d booked a three month
sabbatical from the office, hoping to get some work done on the
house. Then we won the competition. One week anywhere in Britain
of our choosing as long as we took the holiday in the next month.
One day we were in our flat in London, surrounded by half finished
building work, noise, dust and general aggravation, the next
we were all alone on the west coast of Scotland, in a cottage
by the shore on Jura—just us, the seals and the view over the
sea to Argyll.
I wasn’t sure at first. I wanted
to be near a hospital, just in case of emergencies, but she insisted.
It would be our last holiday alone for a while, she was fit and
healthy and she wanted to do it.
The nearest house was five miles
south—the nearest doctor twice that distance. To the north and
west there was only the rugged hills and the deer. We didn’t
even have a boat. At least there was a road—a single track lane
with passing places. It had recently been resurfaced and we had
been provided with a new Range Rover for the duration. I was
confident that we could reach the doctors’ house in less than
twenty minutes in event of an emergency. That was quicker than
I could have managed it in London. And we had warned the doctor
we were coming. I had talked myself round to the idea and I wasn’t
worried. I should have been.
We arrived late—Jura is not the
easiest place to get to. It involved a flight to Glasgow and
a short hop over to Islay. The Range Rover was waiting at Islay
airport, which is more a glorified field than an airstrip. After
that it is a fifteen mile trip to the Port Askaig ferry, a small
ramshackle affair which can take four cars on a calm day across
the half mile of treacherous waters towards the stunning mountains
of Jura.
Once on the island it was a single
track road all the way. There is only one road—twenty miles of
it—with Craighouse, the only town, half way along but we were
going right to the far end.
We stopped in the one and only
hotel for a meal but we were too late to pick up any other provisions—that
would have to wait till the morning.
It was dark when we arrived and
Sandra was too tired to do anything other than fall into bed
and sleep. As for me, I was restless. I never believed that I
would miss the bustle of London’s streets, but the lack of noise
here had me on edge.
The only sound was the gentle lapping
of the sea on the rocks only ten yards from the cottage’s front
door. Occasionally there would be the forlorn cry of a gull or
the croaking of a crow but apart from that it was silent and
dark and strangely disquieting.
I paced the floors, studying the
titles of the books on the long shelves round the walls, listening
to the radio, drinking whisky and trying to pretend that I didn’t
miss the television.
It was very late by the time I
snuggled into bed, taking advantage of the radiating heat from
my pregnant wife beside me. I believe I slept soundly, I don’t
remember any dreams and nothing disturbed me during the night.
She woke me the next morning with
a whisper.
“Get up. Hurry. You’ve got to see
this.”
I was still groggy when I raised
my head to see her leaving the room. I got out of bed, wincing
at the cold seeping through the floorboards, and joined her at
the window in the front room.
“Look”, she said, “Isn’t it wonderful?”
It was very early morning—the sun
was just coming up over the hills of Argyll, spreading a pink
glow across the wispy clouds.
The sea was being slightly ruffled
by a small breeze and, there in the foreground, just at the edge
of the small lawn in front of the house, sat three otters, obviously
a mother and two smaller young. As we watched, they trotted along
the shore, then slipped into the water.
We crept out, still naked, and
watched them cavorting among the huge fronds of seaweed until
I slipped on the wet grass and the sudden movement caused them
to dive, resurfacing again much farther out. Sandra came over
and squeezed me, her full belly pressing its heat against my
flesh.
“Thanks for bringing us here,
John. I love it.” We kissed and I marveled again at how hot and
alive and heavy with life she had become. It was only as we turned
back to the house that I noticed the mound.
It had been too dark the night
before to see any details of the surrounding area but now I could
see that the cottage was built on a small raised piece of land
between two arms of a river. We had come across a small bridge
last night but in the dark I had failed to notice it.
Behind the cottage, just where
the rivers split, there was a huge stone cairn, standing eight
to ten feet high and topped off with a cross which looked to
be the same height again as the cairn and made of solid iron.
Around the cairn there was a wrought iron fence with spiked railings
jutting up towards the sky.
“Why would they put something like
that out here?” she asked me “I thought that cairns were usually
built on top of hills?”
“I’m not sure. Maybe it’s for someone
who died either here or at sea near here. We can ask in town
if you like?” I turned towards her, noticing the goose pimples
which had been raised on her arms.
“Get yourself inside and put some
clothes on; we don’t want you to catch a chill. Anyway, by the
time we get going and get to the town the shop will be open.”
When we eventually got to the shop
it was ten o’clock—there had just been too many things to see
on the drive down.
The shop held only basic foods—eggs,
bacon, cheese, nothing too fancy—but Sandra had got over her
cravings for exotica and we would be able to stock up with most
of our needs for the week.
Sandra was the focus of much of
the talk and was in danger of excessive mothering from some of
the women we met—we turned down several offers of a warmer room
closer to town and the shop owner took our list from us, promising
that she would make it up and we could collect it later.
Luckily, the hotel served late
breakfast. The pace of life on the island moved slowly and you
could run breakfast into lunch into evening meal into supper
without leaving the hotel grounds. We managed to escape at one
in the afternoon, weighed down by bacon and sausages and swilling
with coffee.
It was only when we stopped by
the shop to pick up our supplies that I remembered the cairn.
The shop keeper tried to hide her
movement but I caught it—the sign against the evil eye, two pronged
fingers stabbing at me as she spoke. “You don’t have to worry
about that, sir. It’s only an old memorial. Some say there used
to be a plaque fixed to it but no one can remember what it’s
there for.”
I noticed that the rest of the
customers in the shop had fallen silent. I supposed that the
cairn was the focus for some old superstition. That didn’t bother
me, but I wasn’t about to tell Sandra. Unlike me, she held a
fascination for the supernatural. Anything that went bump in
the night or was out of the ordinary—she fell for it.
I could never understand the fascination
with scaring yourself half to death but I knew that if she found
out that there was something weird about the cairn she would
not stop until she had winkled out the story. In the car on the
way to the cottage I told her it was a war memorial and then
let the subject drop. She didn’t ask any questions.
We finally got back in late afternoon
having made numerous stops to marvel at the stunning variety
of life around us. Sandra made a big show of hand-washing our
traveling clothes and hanging them from a clothes line at the
back of the house.
The rest of the day passed lazily
as we sat on the lawn, drinking long drinks, watching the scenery
and making happy plans for our future. We took our food out onto
the grassy area, sitting on an old rug and throwing occasional
morsels to an inquisitive squirrel. I think that evening was
the closest to heaven I have ever been.
Doctor Reid arrived around six
o’clock and spent ten minutes reassuring himself that Sandra
was not about to go into labour in the near future. He was gracious
and gentlemanly and I could see that Sandra was charmed. Something
in my chest loosened as a knot of worry melted away .
I walked him back to his car while
Sandra cleared up the remains of our picnic. We made small talk
about the weather and our prospects for the coming week, and
he had got into his car before I said what was really on my mind.
I don’t know what made me do it, what made me think that he was
the man to ask, but before I knew it the sentence was out.
“Do you know anything about the
monument out the back?”
He gave me a little sideways look
over the top of his glasses and it was several seconds before
he replied.
“And why should you let that thing
bother you. Mr Wilson?”
Before I could reply, he continued. “If
you really want to know the story, you’ll find a version in a
book on your shelves. A Tourist’s History of Jura. I believe
you’ll find it educational. But make sure you don’t tell your
wife—it’s not a tale for the faint hearted.” At that he wound
up the window and drove off, leaving me with an unexplained chill
in my spine. I shook it off and went back to help my wife.
We were finally forced indoors
by a chill wind which brought the clouds down the hills as the
sun disappeared and a fine grey mist spread over the sea.
Sandra busied herself with some
knitting—baby clothes naturally, and I managed to locate the
book which the doctor had mentioned.
It didn’t take me long to find
the appropriate section and I was amused to see that the chapter
had been written by a certain Doctor Reid of Craighouse, Jura.
There was a block of description
of the cottage and the surrounding area before it got to the
interesting bit.
The mound behind the house is of
some antiquity. A local legend associates it with the little
people who seem to be all prevalent in this area, and one of
the race in particular. In 1598, the battle of Trai-Guinard took
place on Islay, the neighbouring island. The battle was going
badly for Sir James MacDonald when he was approached by a dwarfish
creature who proclaimed himself capable of swinging the battle
in return for certain favours.
To cut a long story short (and
in these parts stories can grow exceedingly long), Sir James,
despite some qualms, agreed. An hour later, the battle was his
and his enemy, Sir Lachlan, lay dead of no apparent injury. Sir
James retired to his house near Craighouse and that night, Wee
Robbie was made a freeman of the estate.
And now we come to the meat of
the story. The townspeople did not take kindly to the creature
in their midst, but he was under the protection of the Laird
and they were powerless. Until that is, the children started
to disappear.
Tales are still whispered around
the fires of the scene that met the eyes of the men who had the
courage to enter the dwelling of the dwarf. Hideous dismembered
corpses lay strewn in all corners and a cauldron was bubbling
in the grate, a foul brew of body parts which could be seen rising
in the stew before falling back once more into the stinking mess.
And yet none had the courage to
end the creature’s life. They interred him in the tomb, a chambered
cairn for long dead kings, and they fixed him there with the
cross and the iron.
It is said that sometimes, in the
dead of night, the tortured screams of the Dubh-sith, the black
elf, can be heard ringing from his prison, and that at such times
it is wise to lock the doors and huddle around the warm hearths
of home.
I could see why the Doctor didn’t
want me to pass the tale on to Sandra—one thing she didn’t need
was lurid fantasies of a child molester in the back yard. When
she asked me what I was reading I passed it off as some local
colour and changed the subject.
For the rest of the evening I tried
to read about the wildlife of the island, but I couldn’t get
the vision out of my head the seething pot of offal and the things
which floated in it.
The next time I looked up Sandra
was smiling at me and it wasn’t long before we adjourned to the
bedroom and made tender careful love as the darkness closed in
around us.
Later, just as I fell asleep, I
could hear that the wind was rising, whistling through the chimney
breasts and causing the trees to rustle and crack.
I woke early and squeezed myself
away from Sandra, taking care not to wake her. After boiling
some water in the kettle I ventured out to see what the weather
was like but the first thing I noticed was the effect of the
wind. The washing was gone from the line, torn off the rope during
the night. I found a shirt in the left hand stream, a pair of
underpants halfway up a tree and I could see Sandra’s blouse
hanging from one arm of the cross on the cairn.
I retrieved everything else I could
see before moving to the mound of stones. I stepped over the
railing, just missing doing myself an injury on the spikes and
clambered up the rocks, dislodging a few in the process and giving
myself several bruises on my knees.
The blouse was wrapped around the
rusted spar and, by straining and stretching I could just about
reach it. Catching hold of the blouse I pulled, just as my footing
gave way. I fell, pulling the blouse with me and felt the material
tear before something solid and heavy hit me on the head forcing
me down onto the rocks, rolling dislodged stones until I was
brought up against the railings.
I heard a loud creaking and looked
up to see the cross, now with a spar missing, swaying from side
to side in the breeze. When I looked down I found the missing
piece, lying by my side with Sandra’s blouse still wrapped around
it. I left it there as I hauled myself over the railings and
hobbled back to the house.
That was it for the rest of the
day. I was dazed, bleeding from a head wound and bruised over
much of my body. Sandra wanted to fetch the doctor but I talked
her out of it. I didn’t want anybody to know that I had defaced
the cross, not yet anyway, not until I had the chance to try
to repair some of the damage.
I spent the day in bed, most of
the time with Sandra beside me, nursing my wounds and wondering
what the islanders’ reaction would be.
As darkness filled the room, Sandra
fell asleep but I lay awake, listening to the creaking of the
cross, the rasping of iron against stone as it swayed back and
forth in the wind.
At some point I must have fallen
asleep. I was awakened by a cold draft, hitting me just on the
back of the neck. I rolled over, hoping to snuggle against my
wife’s warm body, but I met only more empty space. It took several
seconds for me to realise that she wasn’t in the bed.
Moonlight was streaming in through
the window, enough for me to make out her pale figure and the
cross which bobbed and swayed hypnotically in front of her. I
was out of the room and through onto the grass before I realised
that we were both still naked.
I went back to fetch some clothes,
pulling on a long jumper for myself and picking up an overcoat
for her. When I got back to the door she was gone.
In the moonlight I could just make
out the footprints in the grass and I followed them up to the
cairn. I called out her name, twice, but there was no response.
As I got closer, I could see that
the cairn had collapsed in on itself on the left hand side. A
dark passage led downwards, down into the earth, and there was
a dank salty smell wafting up into the night.
I looked around again but there
was no sign of her anywhere. The only assumption I could make
was that she was down there somewhere—down there in the earth.
She had gone walkabout at night before, sometimes getting as
far as the front door in our flat in London, but this was the
first time that she had actually left the house.
I was worried - of course I was,
but I wasn’t thinking in terms of anything other than the personal
danger to her should she stumble in the dark. I wasn’t thinking
in terms of monsters or dwarves. Not yet anyway.
I called her name again, louder
this time, but all I heard was the echo of my voice coming back
to me. I entered the passage but after only two or three yards
it became as black as a pit of hell. It was no good—I needed
some source of light.
Precious minutes were wasted before
I located a flashlight and clouds had covered the moon when I
finally went back outside. I called out, not really expecting
a response, and none came. I put the overcoat on over the top
of the jumper and with some trepidation I went down into the
dark.
The walls were built of large blocks
of sandstone. I had visited several Neolithic tombs, in Carnac,
in Orkney and on Salisbury Plain. This gave the same sense of
age, of a time long past. What I hadn’t expected, what was completely
different, was the overwhelming feeling that this place was in
use. The walls ran damp and there was a salt tang in the air
but there was no sign of moss or lichen on the walls—only the
damp glistening stone.
I pressed on. By shining the light
downwards I could see the barefoot prints which Sandra had made
on her descent. I had no choice but to follow.
The path kept going down, deeper
and deeper, and the air was getting colder and damper. I judged
that I must be under the sea by now and the thought of all that
water above added an extra worry line to my already furrowed
brow. At least the passage hadn’t diverged. Not yet anyway.
I was so busy concentrating on
the way ahead that I stumbled when my foot didn’t meet the expected
step and the path leveled out.
I was in some sort of chamber.
It was hexagonal in shape, about ten yards across and there was
an entrance in every wall. My feet were wet. That was what I
was thinking. It’s funny how your mind gives you something else
to think about at times of stress.
The thing I was trying to ignore
was lying on a slab in the centre of the room. The slab was a
pale green marble of a kind I had never seen and she was lying
on it with her knees raised in the air as if on an operating
table.
Between her legs something moved—something
grey and green and warty and hideous. It slithered and crawled
and I could see that it was inside her, was copulating with her.
I think I went slightly mad then.
I remember grasping the slimy body, almost dropping it as its
small wizened face turned towards me, a face lined with age and
infinitely deep in its evil. Even as I looked, the life went
out of the eyes and the puny head bent in death, one last smile
playing on its lips.
I remember dashing the body again
and again against the wall but I don’t remember tearing it and
mashing it. I must have done though for when I moved towards
my wife I had the slimy remains of it all over my free hand and
its juices coated my feet and ankles.
She was alive. I thanked God for
that as I cradled her in my arms. She seemed to be in a stupor
but when I stood her upright I found that she was able to walk.
I dragged her unyielding body along,
grateful that she seemed to be capable of walking. I had one
last look around the chamber before we headed for the stairs.
The pieces of the creature I had dismembered were bubbling and
frothing in a puddle of bloody ooze.
I fled.
After only twenty or so steps I
felt her stiffen beside me and then she began to pull me back
as she tried to go down once more.
I am not proud of my next action.
I hit her, hard across the chin and she fell into my arms. I
carried her up the stairs. Quite how I managed it without dropping
the torch I am not too sure, and how long it took us I will never
know.
Finally we emerged into the cold
night air. I laid her on the grass beyond the railings and tried
to tumble the rocks over the passage. I had just covered the
entrance when the screaming began.
“The baby. Oh God…It’s coming.
It’s coming.”
I don’t remember much of the next
half hour, only fragments—driving like a maniac as she sobbed
quietly behind me, the sudden light in the deer’s eyes just before
the car hit it dead on, smashing the car’s headlights into a
million tinkling fragments.
I remember the small twinkling
lights in the black distance as I just managed to avoid the cliff
edge and, finally, the iron gate on the path which I almost fell
over as the doctor came towards me and I collapsed into a faint.
I have a vague memory of being
put in an armchair and practically force fed whisky as my wife
was carried upstairs and the doctor called for some help but
my legs wouldn’t move and my arms were heavy and sleep called
me back again.
I dreamed—hot lurid fantasies of
violence and fire, of rape and bloodletting and of a cold black
fury which carried all before it. I woke from screams into screams.
My legs pushed me out of the chair
and towards the door long before my brain was fully awake and
I was halfway up the stairs before I recognised the voice behind
the screaming. I reached the door just as the screams stopped.
Early morning sunlight was streaming
into the room, lighting a scene which will be forever etched
into my memory.
The doctor is standing off to one
side, his left hand covering his mouth, his right clutching his
chest as if to keep his heart in.
An old woman is lying across the
bed in a dead faint, her grey wisps of hair mingled with the
blood from my wife’s legs.
My wife is lying there, throat
muscles straining, mouth open in a long soundless scream which
refuses to come, her gaze fixed on the shape writhing on the
carpet, ignoring the blood flowing from her, ignoring the woman
across her legs, all else immaterial to her pain at the sight
of our child. And there on the floor lies our future, burning
golden in the first rays of the sun, being cleansed in the purifying
light of the new day, my son.
The last thing I see before darkness
takes me away for a long time is the face, the small wizened
features and the age old eyes, the red mouth which squeals at
me as I bring my foot down, hard, and all the members of my family
scream in unison.